My values arise from being a Salesian Sister of Don Bosco involved in the youth, ministry of the Church. 50 years in His service, to the young! At the present moment it is more a ‘being’ than a ‘doing’ thing trying to be the best version of myself.
My days here at Maria Sharan Keshnand have no idle moments, though involvements are few. In response to ‘what do you do all day’? I could say very few things. I am afflicted with rheumatoid arthritis, so initially I felt useless, but I soon realised the Lord had applied brakes on me so that I focus more on Him. He knows best.
To-day I experience serenity. I pray. I live as faithfully as I can, discovering how to strengthen weaknesses and at this given point in time, attempting adjustments to persons and circumstances, responding in appropriate ways corresponding to age and health.
Changes have come. I am older. Energy is erratic I cannot do as much as I could do before. I contribute with paper work, keep in touch with people and enjoy reading, music liturgy and the Computer that broadens up my vision. Sitting at my window I admire multi-coloured birds and flowers of various shapes, sizes and colour, the golden stalks of wheat, bhajari and onion plants dancing in the breeze out in the fields. The chirping of the birds the bleating of the goats, the crowing of cocks, the highway traffic, the barks of Bruce and Grigio all add to the melody I play on the keyboard resounding into a beautiful combo, giving praise and thanks to the Lord.
The little I do is a blessing. It exercises my bones, joints and muscles. I have a new appreciation for my body wonderfully made. I notice and value more, neat arrangements, colour, texture, sound and even the noise of the children. Time does not hold its urgency anymore. Stressing up to meet deadlines has long gone. Low key life helps to control myself and remain serene.
I still have so much more to learn. There is more time for reading and reflecting, for National and World news, listening to debates on T.V channels and other interesting events that can be enjoyed, discussed and prayed about. Listening to music brings a sense of calm and peace into my soul. In managing time realistically silence has become very important and life-giving in my day.
Intuition and awareness are precious gifts. I still have time – don’t know how long – to be redeemed, to forgive and be forgiven, to change, to heal, to accept what I was and am now. I can still be a presence among the youngsters here. Visiting by using the ‘elenco’ helps. It permits me to tour our Indian States, the houses and countries we are in.
Life has been a roller coaster ride since I entered religious life. At the Golden Jubilee of my Religious Profession, even though I have lost the spring in my steps and my finger no longer run smoothly on the ivory and the ebony, I experience a sense of fulfilment and serenity on my way to God. I am grateful to be an F.M.A, grateful to May Help of Christians, Don Bosco and Mother Mazzarello who are my constant companions on life’s journey till I reach ‘destination heaven’. For now I just want to Thank You Lord!